Man in the Bread Aisle at the Newtown Safeway

By Mark Evan Chomsky

The choice seemed consequential only
a week ago – would I finally get it right? –
remember that it was whole
wheat instead of multi and what kind of fancy swirl? –
but now I could pick the wrong one and it wouldn’t make any difference
at all. Except I can’t
for the life of me choose the loaf I should. Not now.
So I stand in the bread aisle like a sentenced
man deciding on my last meal, and trying to keep this decision
as simple as it ought to be
while the packages trick the eye with their redundancy,
each tie twisted so tightly it would take forever to open them up,
and the Christmas carol music keeps jingjingjing-a-linging
and the hurried moms
take their loaves from the shelves and can’t imagine
why someone isn’t doing this for me, isn’t taking care
of the chores and the meals and the million other
little things so I don’t have to be out
in the middle of all this, so I can just be home
where I belong, but do not want to be,
where loss multiplies in every room,
in the thousand things that are not
touched, and the footsteps that will not come
to greet me to see if maybe this time
I finally got the bread

About the Author
An award-winning poet, Mark Evan Chimsky is an editorial consultant based in Portland, Maine (  He was the Editorial Director of Harper San Francisco and headed top imprints at Little, Brown and Macmillan.  In addition, he is the editor of a number of bestsellers, including Johnny Cash’s autobiography, Cash.

This poem originally appeared in Wild Violet. Reprinted by permission of the author.

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